October 22, 2000 [10.22.05 - 11.03pm] [ mood | crushed ] today is five years. . . its so weird to look back and realize that you have lived without this person for so long. i want to be as brave as he was at 15.

there is no such thing as a livejournal cut in my world . . PICTURES. [7.9.05 - 8.21pm] thaaaaat's me. it's potty time. joanne [roommate] annnnnnd myself. i la la la looooooove being drunk. enjoy. Post Comment

[3.6.05 - 8.07pm] i really dont understand people. . . i tell a friend i think its a bad idea that she wants to take drugs[speed] and then she gets mad at me for caring. then everyone is against me . . . im sorry if i had to many people in my life that were close to me and cared SO much about died [from different reasons] . . . next time . . . well there wont be a next time, i just wont care if that is what she wants. Read 6 - Post Comment

[1.8.05 - 4.34pm] [ mood | crappy ] So, I don’t know exactly why I stopped writing in this journal, but I did. It could be because I didn’t have a way to write in it but that was only for a month, but what has stopped me now?! Who knows. Well here is a little update on me. + i’m moving to huntington beach on the 15th of jan. [everyone should come and visit me] - I still don’t have a car. - I bust my ass working two jobs which means I barely have time breath - life is going by so fast I cant even enjoy it. - I wish _________ and I had the same friendship we use to have and it kills me that she is dying inside and there is nothing I can do to help. Wow what a surprise more negatives that pluses figures. p.s. I still read my friends list so just because I do write in mine often or comment I still read. Ill get better. Post Comment

one tree hill. [5.12.04 - 2.00pm] [ mood | discontent ] how do we become so b r o k e n? the people that we love, dont love us back.

la la la . . . im back? [4.27.04 - 10.20pm] [ mood | full ] [ music | to die for - in the heat of the night ] joelle and vanessa. yay! <3. p.s. i got a new layout and new icons! Read 7 - Post Comment

story time everyone. [3.27.04 - 3.28pm] A mother was working in the kitchen listening to her 5 -year-old son playing with his new electric train in the living room. She heard the train stop and her son saying, "All of you sons of bitches who want off, get the hell off now... cause this is the last stop! And all of you sons of bitches who are getting on, get your asses on the train...cause we're going down the tracks." The horrified mother went in and told her son, "We don't use that kind of language in this house. Now I want you to go to your room and you are to stay there for TWO HOURS. When you come out, you may play with your train...but I want you to use nice language." Two hours later, the boy came out of the bedroom and resumed playing with his train. Soon the train stopped and the mother heard her son say... "All passengers, please remember your things, thank you and hope your trip was a pleasant one. We hope you will ride with us again soon." She heard her little darling continue..."For those of you just boarding, remember, there is no smoking in the train. We hope you will have a pleasant and relaxing journey with us today." As the mother began to smile, the child added, "For those of you who are pissed off about the TWO HOUR delay, please see the bitch in the kitchen..." Post Comment

what's new?! [3.10.04 - 12.53pm] [ mood | tired ] So, yeah work has taken over my life. . . . . . and today I got locked in a freezer. Post Comment

all she wants was to be known and feel special. [2.17.04 - 12.50pm] [ mood | curious ] [ music | brand new. ] everyone wants to be known for something. is this true?! [because if your not known for something, who are you? ] . . . . to me?! your the world. <3. Read 6 - Post Comment

[2.7.04 - 5.52pm] p.s. i don't know if you care or even cared in the first place, buuuuuut i found my keys. <3. Read 3 - Post Comment

it was going good then this. [2.6.04 - 7.38pm] [ mood | stressed ] i dont know either to be pissed or what because i didnt really like the damn thing it was basically dead and i wanted to sell it, buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut how the FUCK are you suppose to sell a car without the keys.[and yes, my house keys too] . . . . . yep i fucking lost my damn keys fucking joelle, what the fuck did you do?! damn it all to hell . . . . i suck at life. Post Comment

[2.6.04 - 1.48pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | maroon 5 ] i hate to think but what if you were mine would i be happy? i wouldnt cry and to think all of this wouldnt work i'd like to dream and wonder how i would feel being yours

so yeaaaaaah [2.2.04 - 1.15pm] [ mood | content ] i guess i didnt get the memo that is was the cool thing now to be mean to people. = = = = = in other news, i found out why micheal jackson always wears the doctors mask. so i guess since he has had like 87356476 operations on his nose [ it like feel off ] so now he has like a clip on nose so when he weres the mask he doesnt have the nose on, so he can breath i thought that was kinda . . . weird <3. Read 2 - Post Comment

i can trust you to keep a secrect [1.28.04 - 12.40am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | no doubt ] I think that it's hard to understand many things about life, or in life even. The way relationships don't work out, the way feelings change, and the way people die. = = = = = = = = me: people are crazy me: the way the think and how they can you hurt you and not feel a thing wendy: yeah it is me: . . . i know its random but i was just thinking about it wendy: no i know how it is wendy: exactly wendy: i never know how people can hurt each other wendy: it's like would you want someone to treat you the way your treating me me: exactly wendy: yeah that's why i never treat anyone badly wendy: except if there treating me like crap then i will me: sometimes when bad people get hurt it makes me feel god in a way which is totally bad. . . but its like wow know you know how i feel wendy: yeah me too wendy: it's like i feel gulity for being happy about them getting hurt but it's like damn they needed a wake up call me: exactly. That is way i try to make everyone even if i can't help myself wendy: yeah wendy: i think everyone needs a wake up call every once in awhile me: and i also think it is funny how people say i didn't mean to hurt you, but whatever they did they still did it and they had to think about it and one point or another. and when they still are doing that thing that they didnt mean to do in the first place. wendy: yeah i never understand that i will never hurt you and then they end up hurting you in the end me: yeah wendy: i never get why friends do that me: me too. me: its like you think you know who your friends are me: i think losing trust is like the worst thing ever! wendy: yeah me too me: because if there is no trust what is there wendy: yeah so true wendy: i am a big believer of trust me: oh yeah me too wendy: and if i loose that at all wendy: it's hard for me to trust again me: oh ya very me: it scares me sometimes wendy : yeah me too wendy: cause once that happens with one person wendy: it makes me think i can't trust anyone wendy: and question everyone me: especially if its the person you trusted most. = = = = = = = trust: 1. reliance: confidence in and reliance on good qualities, especially fairness, truth, honor, or ability 2. care: responsibility for taking good care of somebody or something 3. position of obligation: the position of somebody who is expected by others to behave responsibly or honorably 4. something in which confidence is placed: somebody who or something that people place confidence or faith in = = = = = = hurt: 1. pain: emotional or mental pain or suffering 2. injury: an injury or wound, whether emotional or physical 3. upset: feeling or showing emotional pain or suffering = = = = = = = = = = its funny the way things work out good or bad Post Comment

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!. <333 [1.27.04 - 2.43pm] [ mood | accomplished ] my life is s l o w l y coming together. i like this feeling. <3 p.s. don't mess it up joelle. Post Comment

random?! YES! [1.17.04 - 1.15pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | lilo & stitch ] soooo ummm, HOMEGROWN changed they name to UGLY or something about UGLY is Bob Herco from the original Home Grown. hmm . . .can someone clear this up for me. - - - - - - - - - in other news i uploaded my aim and i have to say im quite impressed with it . . . its neat <3. Read 2 - Post Comment

</3 [1.14.04 - 5.32pm] [ mood | crappy ] don't you LOVE the way you make me feel useless, well done. are you pround of yourself?!

[1.11.04 - 11.30pm] [ mood | calm ] This was my weekend: FRIDAY: [+] My aunt moved out of my house [fuck yessss, that lady was fucking crazy . . . for reals] [+] went to see Big Fish. that movie was AMAZING [go see it] [-] went to All About Coffee to see Rock Kills Kid but they NEVER shower up. The only plus about this was that we saw some familiar faces. Chatted it up a little. [+] went to Denny's and pigged out. [+] went to Vanessa house for a little bit [a picture of us at the coffee house and a picture of the potato head we played with] ( vanessa. alisha. joelle. ) SATURDAY: [+] went to a bridal fashion show [tons of fun. i want to get married now. all i need is a nice boy.] [+] eat pizza with the family. [-] came home to my mom and brother outside. They we stuck from two till i got home at eight thirty or so. [it was so sad] [+] went to a party with ALISHA to Rion from The Fictions going away party. i had SO much fun. everyone was SO nice . . . maybe expect these two girls. Grr. [these are the type of people that I need to surround myself with. I was happy and laughing the whole time. aww i love making new friends] · the A-team was the game of the night. Haha · Smile, The Kinks, and few others I don't remember was the music of the night. · Josh, Rion, and Juan from The Fictions sang across the universe by The Beatles, it was the cutest thing EVER. · Aww, Rion said the nicest thing to me . . ."aww, a beautiful girl like you doesn't have a boyfriend." haha i dunno it was nice. Oh and he named my purse toby · I got a splinter in my middle finger and i'm sewing Alisha. [hahaha] [-] on our way home alisha and I almost died . . . of a heartache. Some fucker[s] put a Christmas tree and cones on the freeway . . . OMG I didn't see it and swerved right now time. it looked like ( this ) okay not quite like this but you get the idea. : ] SUNDAY: [+] relaxed ALL day. : ] Read 4 - Post Comment

don't complain [1.8.04 - 2.32pm] [ mood | numb ] so yeah, a friend of mine from high school, mike . . . well he was murdered on new years. - - - - - - - - he was only 20 . . . - - - - - - - - i found out in target [how fucking great is that] - - - - - - - - i can't even cry. [i just want to hit someone. can i hit you?!] - - - - - - - - i always say why does god take out the good people from the world when there is SO few of them. Read 10 - Post Comment

[1.6.04 - 1.07pm] [ mood | shocked ] [ music | shadow [britney] ] Top 25 most dangerous cities in america... 01 Detroit, MI 02 St. Louis, MO 03 Atlanta, GA 04 Camden, NJ 05 Washington, DC 06 Compton, CA 07 Dayton, OH 08 Baltimore, MD 09 Tampa, FL 10 Gary, IN 11 Memphis, TN 12 North Charleston, SC 13 New Orleans, LA 14 Richmond, VA 15 Trenton, NJ 16 Jackson, MS 17 Cincinnati, OH 18 Youngstown, OH 19 Cleveland, OH 20 Springfield, MA 21 Oakland, CA 22 Birmingham, AL 23 Miami, FL 24 Richmond, CA 25 Reading, PA Crazy, I tell you. CRAZY! <3. Read 8 - Post Comment

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