tatum joelle

October 22, 2000

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 06:07:17 GMT

today is five years. . . its so weird to look back and realize that you have lived without this person for so long. i want to be as brave as he was at 15.

there is no such thing as a livejournal cut in my world . . PICTURES.

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 03:57:17 GMT

thaaaaat's me.

it's potty time.

joanne [roommate] annnnnnd myself.

i la la la looooooove being drunk.

enjoy.

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 04:09:42 GMT

i really dont understand people. . . i tell a friend i think its a bad idea that she wants to take drugs[speed] and then she gets mad at me for caring. then everyone is against me . . . im sorry if i had to many people in my life that were close to me and cared SO much about died [from different reasons] . . . next time . . . well there wont be a next time, i just wont care if that is what she wants.

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 00:37:50 GMT

So, I don’t know exactly why I stopped writing in this journal, but I did. It could be because I didn’t have a way to write in it but that was only for a month, but what has stopped me now?! Who knows.

Well here is a little update on me.

+ i’m moving to huntington beach on the 15th of jan. [everyone should come and visit me]

- I still don’t have a car.

- I bust my ass working two jobs which means I barely have time breath

- life is going by so fast I cant even enjoy it.

- I wish _________ and I had the same friendship we use to have and it kills me that she is dying inside and there is nothing I can do to help.

Wow what a surprise more negatives that pluses figures.

p.s. I still read my friends list so just because I do write in mine often or comment I still read. Ill get better.

one tree hill.

Wed, 12 May 2004 21:03:35 GMT

how do we become so b r o k e n?

the people that we love, dont love us back.

la la la . . . im back?

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 05:26:16 GMT

joelle and vanessa.

yay!

<3.

p.s. i got a new layout and new icons!

story time everyone.

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 23:29:17 GMT

A mother was working in the kitchen listening to her 5 -year-old son playing with his new electric train in the living room.

She heard the train stop and her son saying, "All of you sons of bitches who want off, get the hell off now... cause this is the last stop! And all of you sons of bitches who are getting on, get your asses on the train...cause we're going down the tracks."

The horrified mother went in and told her son, "We don't use that kind of language in this house. Now I want you to go to your room and you are to stay there for TWO HOURS. When you come out, you may play with your train...but I want you to use nice language."

Two hours later, the boy came out of the bedroom and resumed playing with his train. Soon the train stopped and the mother heard her son say... "All passengers, please remember your things, thank you and hope your trip was a pleasant one. We hope you will ride with us again soon."

She heard her little darling continue..."For those of you just boarding, remember, there is no smoking in the train. We hope you will have a pleasant and relaxing journey with us today."

As the mother began to smile, the child added, "For those of you who are pissed off about the TWO HOUR delay, please see the bitch in the kitchen..."

what's new?!

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 20:56:13 GMT

So, yeah work has taken over my life.

. . . . . and today I got locked in a freezer.

all she wants was to be known and feel special.

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 20:45:55 GMT

everyone wants to be known for something.

is this true?!

[because if your not known for something, who are you? ]

. . . . to me?! your the world.

<3.

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 01:52:12 GMT

p.s. i don't know if you care or even cared in the first place,

buuuuuut

i found my keys.

<3.

it was going good then this.

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 03:37:46 GMT

i dont know either to be pissed or what because i didnt really like the damn thing it was basically dead and i wanted to sell it,

buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut

how the FUCK are you suppose to sell a car without the keys.[and yes, my house keys too]

. . . . .

yep i fucking lost my damn keys

fucking joelle, what the fuck did you do?!

damn it all to hell . . . . i suck at life.

Fri, 06 Feb 2004 09:46:00 GMT

i ~~hate~~ to think
but what if
you were mine
would i be happy?
i wouldnt cry
and to think
all of this wouldnt work
i'd like to dream
and wonder how i would feel
being yours

so yeaaaaaah

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 21:13:11 GMT

i guess i didnt get the memo that is was the cool thing now to be mean to people.

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in other news, i found out why micheal jackson always wears the doctors mask. so i guess since he has had like 87356476 operations on his nose [ it like feel off ] so now he has like a clip on nose so when he weres the mask he doesnt have the nose on, so he can breath

i thought that was kinda . . . weird

<3.

i can trust you to keep a secrect

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 08:39:43 GMT

I think that it's hard to understand many things about life, or in life even. The way relationships don't work out, the way feelings change, and the way people die.

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me: people are crazy
me: the way the think and how they can you hurt you and not feel a thing
wendy: yeah it is
me: . . . i know its random but i was just thinking about it
wendy: no i know how it is
wendy: exactly
wendy: i never know how people can hurt each other
wendy: it's like would you want someone to treat you the way your treating me
me: exactly
wendy: yeah that's why i never treat anyone badly
wendy: except if there treating me like crap then i will
me: sometimes when bad people get hurt it makes me feel god in a way which is totally bad. . . but its like wow know you know how i feel
wendy: yeah me too
wendy: it's like i feel gulity for being happy about them getting hurt but it's like damn they needed a wake up call
me: exactly. That is way i try to make everyone even if i can't help myself
wendy: yeah
wendy: i think everyone needs a wake up call every once in awhile
me: and i also think it is funny how people say i didn't mean to hurt you, but whatever they did they still did it and they had to think about it and one point or another. and when they still are doing that thing that they didnt mean to do in the first place.
wendy: yeah i never understand that i will never hurt you and then they end up hurting you in the end
me: yeah
wendy: i never get why friends do that
me: me too.
me: its like you think you know who your friends are
me: i think losing trust is like the worst thing ever!
wendy: yeah me too
me: because if there is no trust what is there
wendy: yeah so true
wendy: i am a big believer of trust
me: oh yeah me too
wendy: and if i loose that at all
wendy: it's hard for me to trust again
me: oh ya very
me: it scares me sometimes
wendy : yeah me too
wendy: cause once that happens with one person
wendy: it makes me think i can't trust anyone
wendy: and question everyone
me: especially if its the person you trusted most.

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trust:
1. reliance: confidence in and reliance on good qualities, especially fairness, truth, honor, or ability

2. care: responsibility for taking good care of somebody or something

3. position of obligation: the position of somebody who is expected by others to behave responsibly or honorably

4. something in which confidence is placed: somebody who or something that people place confidence or faith in

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hurt:
1. pain: emotional or mental pain or suffering

2. injury: an injury or wound, whether emotional or physical

3. upset: feeling or showing emotional pain or suffering

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its funny the way things work out good or bad

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!. <333

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 10:43:08 GMT

my life is s l o w l y coming together.

i like this feeling. <3

p.s. don't mess it up joelle.

random?! YES!

Sat, 17 Jan 2004 09:14:59 GMT

soooo ummm, HOMEGROWN changed they name to UGLY or something about UGLY is Bob Herco from the original Home Grown. hmm . . .can someone clear this up for me.

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in other news i uploaded my aim and i have to say im quite impressed with it . . . its neat

<3.

</3

Thu, 15 Jan 2004 01:33:03 GMT

don't you LOVE the way you make me feel useless, well done.

are you pround of yourself?!

Mon, 12 Jan 2004 07:30:36 GMT

This was my weekend:

FRIDAY:
[+] My aunt moved out of my house [fuck yessss, that lady was fucking crazy . . . for reals]
[+] went to see Big Fish. that movie was AMAZING [go see it]
[-] went to All About Coffee to see Rock Kills Kid but they NEVER shower up. The only plus about this was that we saw some familiar faces. Chatted it up a little.
[+] went to Denny's and pigged out.
[+] went to Vanessa house for a little bit
[a picture of us at the coffee house and a picture of the potato head we played with]

I made the one on the left and Vanessa made the one on the right.

and for those of you who don't have Vanessa on your list this is the note we left Rock Kills Kid

it reads: Dear Rock Kills Kid; We've been waiting here for four hours and we just want to let you know you're THE most irresponsible band we've ever come across. Thanks for letting us down! =) ps; And you wonder why people hate you. Oh and we left a message with Fearless about you.</u>

hey what can you do . .we were pissed

SATURDAY:
[+] went to a bridal fashion show [tons of fun. i want to get married now. all i need is a nice boy.]
[+] eat pizza with the family.
[-] came home to my mom and brother outside. They we stuck from two till i got home at eight thirty or so. [it was so sad]
[+] went to a party with ALISHA to Rion from The Fictions going away party. i had SO much fun. everyone was SO nice . . . maybe expect these two girls. Grr. [these are the type of people that I need to surround myself with. I was happy and laughing the whole time. aww i love making new friends]
· the A-team was the game of the night. Haha
· Smile, The Kinks, and few others I don't remember was the music of the night.
· Josh, Rion, and Juan from The Fictions sang across the universe by The Beatles, it was the cutest thing EVER.
· Aww, Rion said the nicest thing to me . . ."aww, a beautiful girl like you doesn't have a boyfriend." haha i dunno it was nice. Oh and he named my purse toby
· I got a splinter in my middle finger and i'm sewing Alisha. [hahaha]

[-] on our way home alisha and I almost died . . . of a heartache. Some fucker[s] put a Christmas tree and cones on the freeway . . . OMG I didn't see it and swerved right now time. it looked like okay not quite like this but you get the idea. : ]

SUNDAY:
[+] relaxed ALL day. : ]

don't complain

Thu, 08 Jan 2004 22:31:15 GMT

so yeah, a friend of mine from high school, mike . . . well he was murdered on new years.

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he was only 20 . . .

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i found out in target [how fucking great is that]

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i can't even cry. [i just want to hit someone. can i hit you?!]

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i always say why does god take out the good people from the world when there is SO few of them.

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 21:05:30 GMT

Top 25 most dangerous cities in america...

01 Detroit, MI
02 St. Louis, MO
03 Atlanta, GA
04 Camden, NJ
05 Washington, DC
06 Compton, CA
07 Dayton, OH
08 Baltimore, MD
09 Tampa, FL
10 Gary, IN
11 Memphis, TN
12 North Charleston, SC
13 New Orleans, LA
14 Richmond, VA
15 Trenton, NJ
16 Jackson, MS
17 Cincinnati, OH
18 Youngstown, OH
19 Cleveland, OH
20 Springfield, MA
21 Oakland, CA
22 Birmingham, AL
23 Miami, FL
24 Richmond, CA
25 Reading, PA

Crazy, I tell you. CRAZY!

<3.

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 23:32:36 GMT

awww, i love jenn so much. this made me laugh and i wanted to share. soooo. . . . enjoy. : ]

jenn: hehe youre too cute
me: noooo you are
me: hehehe
jenn: you make me laugh
jenn: its mary lou's bday right
jenn: hold need more ceral
jenn: how do spell ceral
jenn: that doesnt look right
me: hahahahahaha
me: LOL
jenn: lol
me: its cereal
jenn: right just realized that
jenn: lol thanks
me: omg i couldnt stop laughing that was sooo funny
me: you're welcome

Me ;
Name : Tatum Joelle Sanon.
Do you like it? Yes.
Nicknames : JOJO.
Screen names : shes in a box
Age : 20.
Birthday : October 17, 1983
Sign : Libra.
Location : Rancho Cucamonga, California.
School : Fullerton Junior College.
Status : Single.
Crush : maaaaaybeeee. . shhhh
Virgin? . . . . . .
Natural hair color : Dark broooooown.
Current hair color : Dark Brooooown
Eye color : Brooooown.
Height : 5'1."
Birthplace : Pasadena, California.
Shoe size : 7 or 7.5.

Family ;
Parents : Eve.
Siblings : Two, Stanley and Garry.
Live with : Mom, Brother and others who don't matter.
Favorite relative : All the girl cousins

Favorites ;
Number : Who has a favorite number?! What is the point of it? Someone tell me…please.
Color : Black, pink, yellow.
Day : Friday, and Saturday
Month : December
Song : the new Britney Spears
Movie : Too many to name.
Food : Pizza. Chicken Caesar Salads. Mrs. Balarezo's tuna.
Band : Too many to name.
Season : Winter!!!
Sport : Soccer.
Class : Art.
Teacher : Mrs. Hampton second and part of sixth before my mom made me move
Drink : Water. Cherry coke. Dr. Pepper. Sprite
Veggie : . . . . .
TV Show : </b> Will & Grace. Friends. The Gilmore Girls. The Family Guy. I Love Lucy. Boy Meets World. ER. Basically, anything on The Disney Channel.
Radio Station : I hate the radio.
Store : I don't know?
Word : What the fuck. YO. Sup. Nice. Sure.
Animal : Dog.
Flower : Roses.
State : California. New York. Anywhere it snows

This or that ;
Me/You: You.
Coke/pepsi : Cherry coke.
Day/night : Night all the waaaaaaaaay
Aol/aim : umm . . . either is fine. I have aim.
Cd/cassette : CD.
Dvd/vhs : DVD.
Jeans/khakis : Jeans.
Car/truck : Car.
Tall/short : Tall.
Lunch/dinner : Dinner.
Gap/Old Navy : Old Navy.
Lipstick/Lipgloss : Lipgloss is meee.
Silver/Gold : Silver.
Alcohol/Weed : Alcohol.

Love and relationships ;
Do you have a bf/gf: Not at the moment.
Do you have a crush? . . . .
How long have you liked him/her? . . . . . ..
Why do you like this person? . . . . .
If you're single... why are you single? Not sure.
How long was your longest relationship? Six months.
How long was your shortest relationship? Three weeks. [what a waste of time.]
Who was your first love? . . . . . .
What do you miss about them? . . . . . .

The past ;
What is the one thing you would change about your past? I would Take more chances
Last thing you heard : Stanley talking over my tv
Last thing you saw : The tv
Last thing you said : "Damn it why can't I remember. . . SHIT"
Who is the last person you saw? Mom.
Who is the last person you kissed? . . . . .
Who is the last person you hugged? Mike
Who is the last person you fought with? . . . . . .
Who is the last person you were on the phone with? Vanessa
What is the last TV show you saw? A Christmas Story
What is the last song you heard? . . . . . .I dunno

The present ;
What are you wearing? .
What are you doing? Filling this thing out.
Who are you talking to? NO one.
What song are you listening to? the tv [A Christmas Story]
Where are you? The front room.
Are you online? "OKAY YA, SOMEONE NEEDS TO GET RID OF THIS. IT'S LAME." - vanessa
How are you feeling? Hurt.
Are you in a chatroom? No.

Future ;
What day is it tomorrow? Tuesday
What are you going to do after this? How old will you be when you graduate? I graduated high school at the age of eighteen and I have NO clue what i'm going to do after this . . .. i haven't thought about it
What do you wanna be? I want to be a teacher . . .I think.
Where will you be in 25 years? Hopefully doing something meaningful and happy.

Have you ever ;
Drank? Yes.
Smoked? Just cigarettes and weed [weed never again]
Had sex? . . . . . ..
Stolen? Yes.
Done anything illegal? Yes.
Wanted to die? Yes.
Hit someone? Yes.

Other ;
Do you write in cursive or print? Print.
Are you a lefty or a righty? Righty
What is your sexual preference? Male.
What piercings do you have? Ears.
Any tattoos? No, but I will someday.
Do you drive? "beep beep, who's got the keys to my jeep, vooooooom"
Do you have glasses or braces? I have glasses but they are reading ones.

Physical appearance ;
What do you most like about your body? Hair. Eyebrows. Lips.
And least? I want to be skinny
How many fillings do you have? Two.
Do you think you're good looking? Two
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? Yes . . . but they are blind.
Do you look like any celebrities? Nope.

Fashion ;
Do you wear a watch? Yes.
How many coats and jackets do you own? . . . . .
Favorite pants/skirt color? Black.
most expensive item of clothing? Not Suuuuure
Most treasured? I don't "treasure" any of my clothes.
What kind of shoes do you wear? Converse
Describe your style in one word : Me.

just a thought

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 11:45:09 GMT

static in my laundry just annoys the shit out of me sometimes. once i went to school with a sock in my hood.

NUMBER OF...
:x: piercings = 4
:x: tattoos = 0
:x: height = 5'1"
:x: shoe size = 7 1/2
:x: hair color = dark brown
:x: siblings = 29 and 14 year old brothers

LAST...
:x: movie you rented = the hot chick
:x: movie you bought = haha. I have no clue.
:x: song you listened to = don't remember. Hm.
:x: song that was stuck in your head = the newest Brand New song
:x: cd you bought = . . .
:x: cd you listened to = a mixed cd
:x: person you've called = vanessa
:x: person that's called you = vanessa
:x: tv show you've watched = A CHRISTMAS STORY!!
:x: person you were thinking of = . . .
:x: friend you made = Charlie and Candice

DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = not at the moment
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = yesss. New York.
:x: think about suicide = i used to
:x: you believe in online dating = not really
:x: others find you attractive = i guess so
:x: you want more piercings = yes...very much so
:x: you drink = not often
:x: you do drugs = nope
:x: you smoke = not often
:x: you like cleaning = sometimes
:x: you like roller coasters = love them
:x: you write in cursive or print = print!

FAVORITE...
:x: food = pizza
:x: song = . . . .
:x: thing to do = laugh, smile, being happy, dancing, singing.
:x: thing to talk about = love, life, and music
:x: sports = soccer
:x: drinks = iced tea, 7up, sprite, dr. pepper, wild cherry pepsi
:x: clothes = jackets
:x: movies = indie films, scary films and girly films
:x: singer = . . . .
:x: holiday = Christmas

HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl = yes...missing my best friend
:x: ever cried over a boy = nope…
:x: ever lied to someone = yep
:x: ever been in a fist fight = not yet
:x: ever been arrested = nope

WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = the one my mom buys. . i'm not sure.
:x: shoes do you wear = most of the time converse
:x: are you scared of = . . . . . .
:x: of times I have been in love? = zero
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = way too many times
:x: of hearts I have broken? = I'm not sure . . . a few I think.
:x: of girls I have kissed? = 3
:x: of boys I have kissed? = a lot.
:x: of girls I've slept with? = slumber parties
:x: of boys I've slept with? = slumber parties?
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = one?
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 0
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = 3 or 4?
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = a few I'm not sure
:x: of scars on my body? = . . . . . . .
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = i try not to live my life with regrets...but i'd have to say maybe 1

FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = little mermaid
:x: word = What The Fuck. YO. Sup. Nice. Sure.
:x: nickname = JOJO
:x: guy name = . . . . .
:x: girl name = . . . . .
:x: eye color = brown
:x: flower = rose
:x: piercing = lip
:x: actor = . . . . . .
:x: actress = . . . . .

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty = sometimes
:x: funny = yes
:x: hot = i don't like that word when it has to do with me
:x: friendly = very
:x: amusing = to myself
:x: ugly = sometimes
:x: loveable = yes
:x: caring = too much
:x: sweet = very
:x: dorky = YES. HAHAHAHAHAHA

DESCRIBE YOUR..
[ x ] Wallet - black with red stars.
[ x ] Hairbrush - pink
[ x ] Toothbrush - spin pro brush
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - my watch
[ x ] Pillow cover - white
[ x ] Blanket - black
[ x ] Coffee cup - pink.
[ x ] Sunglasses - bro looking ones
[ x ] Underwear - . . . . . .
[ x ] Favorite shirt - . . . . . .
[ x ] Perfume/cologne- AS LONG AS IT SMELLS GREAT
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - a mixed cd
[ x ] Tattoos - 0
[ x ] Piercings - ears
[ x ] What you are wearing now - …..nothing. ; ]
[ x ] In my mouth - teeeeeth
[ x ] In my head - so much
[ x ] Wishing - i had something fun to do today
[ x ] After this - probably going to eaaaaaat.
[ x ] Fetishes - sssssssssh it a secret. hahaha.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Chris! Or Ryan! OR _ _ _ _ _!
[ x ] Is next to you right now - the couch
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming monthhaving a job and happiness all over!
[ x ] The last thing you ate - cake
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of . . . . .
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - maybe
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes of course
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - definitely
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - yes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - not suuuuuuure.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - a ferrit!
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - 42 hours I think.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - I suuuuuuuuck.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - quarter
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies - too many to name.
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand? - that having an open mind is so important.
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - why people are the way they are.
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around - Geremy Molter. r.i.p

<3.

different in a good way.

Thu, 01 Jan 2004 01:59:40 GMT

fuck what joelle thinks

fuck how joelle feels

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who cares what joelle thinks

who care how joelle feels

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WELL FUCK YOU TOO.

EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE DIFFERENT.

ENOUGH OF THIS, STARTING. . . . NOW!

<3.

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 21:46:39 GMT

guess what i just got?! . . .

that's right the new Britney Spears cd

annnnnnnnnnnnnd

a Ventie Caramel Macchiato with extra caramel.

uh huh.

be jealous.

or at least pretend to be. ; ]

<3.

10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. Britney Spears
2. A Perfect Circle
3. The Blood Brothers
4. The Sounds
5. Justin Timberlake
6. No Doubt.
7. Dead Poetic.
8. Brand New
9. Primadonna
10. Damone

09 things you look forward to:
1. getting a new car
2. finding a job
3. being happy
4. meeting new friends
5. [fill in blank] . . .
6. taking more chances
7. seeing old friends
8. finding someone to call my own
9. the next time i pee my pants from laughter

8 things you like to wear:
1. my sunglasses
2. scarves
3. sweater
4. my cute jeans
5. my watch
6. my cool socks
7. my black studded belt
8. a smile

07 things that annoy you:
1. being bored
2. disrespect
3. stuck up scenesters
4. television
5. heat
6. bad hair days
7. bad smells

06 things you say most days:
1. sure.
2. what the fuck.
3. yes.
4. im bored.
5. whatever.
6. nice.

05 things you do everyday:
1. listen to music
2. over analyze everything
3. think about certain people
4. laugh
5. smile

04 people you want to spend more time with:
1. there are honestly way to many people to list here.

03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. drew berrymore movies
2. a Christmas story
3. girls just want to have fun . . . there's lots more.

02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. any new Britney Spears song.
2. hmmm. . .not sure.

01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. i wish i knew.

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 10:30:37 GMT

pain:emotional distress: severe emotional or mental distress

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i dont want to see anyone in pain.

i dont want to be a part of the reason that someone is in pain.

i dont want to be the reason someone is it pain.

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sometimes I feel like i'm wasting every day